A dear person in my inner circle reminds me on a fairly regular basis that the river of our life will take us exactly where we are supposed to be – always.
That sounds great unless you are a person like me who prefers well-planned, charted experiences where the outcomes have a high probability of turning out in your favor.
To know me personally is to know that I like order. Chaos causes panic within me. Surprises are derailments in my daily “to do” list. I like clear beginnings, middles, and endings to all things in life. When reading a fictional piece of literature, I will often read the very last page in a novel just to prepare myself for the outcomes the characters will face at the end. Ambiguity makes me insane. I like clear, concise expectations and boundaries. In this way, I can chart my approach to a situation and know with some sort of reasonableness what will happen.
Crazy, I know.
An even crazier thought is that my current career position requires of me an amazing amount of flexibility and quick decision-making. I thought I would have a hard time with such a work environment and yet I found it to be a pleasant change.
Every afternoon before leaving my office, I write down a list of items that need to be accomplished for the next day. This helps me to have a focus and purpose. However, I can’t always predict how my days are going to unfold. When my plan fails to match the reality of the office, I quickly tackle interference issues and then reprioritize. There were several days this year when my “to do” list fell hostage to the piles of paperwork that crept up. I am getting better at saying “Oh well”. In fact, I would say this has been a huge area of growth for me.
There are still times when I struggle with the possibility of a change that is unplanned. I get scared from time to time when things are left hanging in the balance and I must play the “what if” waiting game.
But, my dear friend, who rides along the river of life, is teaching me the power and freedom of just letting go and going with the flow. I prefer the ocean; so, I have challenged myself to ride the life as if on the sea. Therefore….
1. The ocean is wide and vast making it difficult to know what lies beyond that far-reaching horizon. We cannot possibly see “what lies beyond” the horizon. The horizon is the focal point for traveling from one destination to the next. We know where we are now…we perceive where we wish to go….but we must prepare for the sea of change that lies in-between. We can guess, at best. Instead, I am learning to hope.
2. There is an undercurrent that will take us where we are meant to go, even if the course we have charted looks very different. I have always had a specific set of goals and things I wished to accomplish in my life. I have been fortunate to see many of the seeds I have planted grow and are now bearing fruit. What I am still learning, is to accept that my life is part of a grander production; therefore, I must learn to yield my course in order to fulfill something better. This is the most difficult for me to grasp and one that I struggle to understand.
3. We must learn to accept the ebbs and flows with a spirit of grace and humbleness. Life is not always about smooth sailing. Storms will come up very suddenly, out of nowhere, and leave our life’s vessel tossed about. At other times, we see the storm clearly ahead of us and we are able to plan a course of action. Then there are moments in time filled with the bliss of calm seas that quietly take us closer and closer to that far-reaching horizon. However the waters are for sailing through our life, our attitude will speak an entire ministry to others who are watching. Trust me, they are always watching.
4. The waves are coming – why not learn to surf? One of my life’s goals is to learn to surf. I need not be accomplished, I just want to feel the thrill (or what I imagine to be the thrill) of gliding on top of such a powerful force – even if I get up once for a few brief seconds. I imagine from the top of a wave you have the privilege of seeing a little bit more of the bigger picture.
Ultimately, surfing is learning to ride in tandem with whatever life wave we find ourselves on. The beauty is also in learning how to break upon the shore with that wave and not be broken by it.
Someday I will learn to surf. Today, I’m polishing up my board.
Hang ten and live well, Reader.